My France Bucket List

If you’ve been following me on social media then you’ll know I’m going back to France in a couple of weeks! I’ll be staying there for 4 months, in the middle of nowhere and with a lot of time on my hands. With this in mind, it seemed like a good idea to put together a bucket list of things I want to do/achieve whilst I’m out there.

Let’s dive straight into it!

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  1. Go on 2 dog walks a day

  2. Wake up at 7am every day

  3. Read all of my masters books before the term starts

  4. Complete a couch to 5k programme

  5. Go to King Arthur’s castle

  6. Travel up the Breton coast in a campervan with my friends

  7. Teach private English lessons

  8. Go to the beach

  9. Wear a bikini on the beach

  10. Go to Rennes

  11. Make video postcards and post them on YouTube

  12. Outline my novel

  13. Eat ALL the cheese

  14. Drink ALL the wine

  15. Practise yoga before bed

  16. Go to Vannes

My Grandma has two lovely dogs called Milou and Lucky, and she takes them out on 5k walks like twice a day. She’s crazy fit, so I’m going with her.

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How wild is it that I’ve been going to Brittany at least once a year for my entire life and yet I’ve never been to Rennes? That’s gotta change this year!

I’m hoping to advertise English lessons in the village to make some extra money to fund my fun times, and I’d love to use some of that money to buy some good novel writing software so I can start outlining my book before I start my masters.

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Couch to 5k is something I’ve always wanted to do, but never mustered up the courage to give it a try where I live in London. You see, when you’re a fat person existing in public, you get abuse hurled at you, and it’s even worse when you’re exercising. The isolated nature of my Grandma’s house means that I’ll be able to run in peace whilst taking in gorgeous scenery. Yoga is another thing I want to get into in a big way, as my body is in dire need of a combination of movement and care.

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Hopefully during the summer months, a few of my friends will be visiting and I can’t wait! Two of my best friends from university are going to come down with a campervan so we can ride up the west coast of France and live our summer hippy dreams. My friend from Paris is also coming to visit and we plan on drinking a lot of wine in the sun to make up for lost time.

You guys, I’m so excited about going back to France! France, and particularly Brittany, has always felt like a second home to me. Even with my shit French, I feel comfortable and welcomed there. I can’t wait to go home.

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The Ultimate Self-Care Routine and Gift Guide

Self-care is a hugely important part of recovery, and if you haven’t yet made it a staple of your week (or day), then it’s time to get cracking! In this post, I’ll be sharing some of my favourite things to help you set the mood and relax when it comes time to indulge in some pampering self-care.

Self-care is a hugely important part of recovery, and if you haven’t yet made it a staple of your week (or day), then it’s time to get cracking! In this post, I’ll be sharing some of my favourite things to help you set the mood and relax when it comes time to indulge in some pampering self-care.

SET THE MOOD

First things first, you need to set the mood just right for your self-care. This means different things to different people, but I like to light a scented candle or burn some scented oil, and put on one of my favourite records. If vinyl isn’t for you, I’ve also made a free self-care Spotify playlist!

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PAMPER

Once the mood is set, it’s time to get pampering! If you spend all day on your feet (hello fellow teachers), then a foot soak is a great way to release tension at the end of the day. You can either use a soak specifically designed for feet, or just put some Epsom salts in warm water. Epsom salts also work great in a bath with a few drops of your favourite essential oil or bath bomb.

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COSY

Once you’re out of the bath, it’s time to get cosy! Dry off and moisturise using your favourite lotion (I love Lush’s Sleepy lotion at the end of a long day), and put on a pair of fuzzy socks. Fill up your hot water bottle if needed and curl up under a blanket with a book like the Little Book of Hygge, or any other book that tickles your fancy.

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I always feel so better after a little me-time, and I hope this post helps you unwind! What are your favourite ways to relax and practise self-care?

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Why I'm Moving Back to France

If you follow me on Instagram, you’ll know that I’m moving back to France for the summer at the start of May.

For people unfamiliar with my story, I used to live in France! I lived in a studio flat just outside of Paris and I loved it. I’ve always felt at home in France (language skills aside), and I moved there by myself after accepting a teaching job in the suburbs. Unfortunately, things didn’t work out as I’d hoped and I had to move back to London after my breakdown.

So what’s the deal? Why am I going back? Where am I going to?

This time, I’m going to the countryside. My awesome Grandma lives outside a tiny village in the Morbihan region of Brittany, in the North West of France. She has a cottage, dogs, allotments, an orchard and a ton of physical work for me to do. I fully expect her to put me to work mowing the grass, pulling weeds and digging potatoes. That’s kinda why I’m going.

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Rural France

I’ve been so bored since I got back to London. I’m still signed off work for a few months, which is endlessly frustrating. I love working. It gives me a sense of purpose, and I get a lot of my self-esteem from being employed. I have specific things to do when I wake up in the morning which I like, and I get my body moving, especially because I usually work with toddlers.

But it goes beyond that. I’ve been lacking inspiration since I moved back home, both creatively and personally. I feel like I’ve fallen into a rut that’s super hard to get out of. For whatever reason, I find it really difficult to be inspired when I live with my parents. I honestly couldn’t tell you why. Maybe it’s the familiarity. Maybe I feel so comfortable with my surroundings that I’ve stopped seeing the little bits of wonder in it. Whatever it is, I’ve lost my mojo since being back in London. Whenever I’m in France, I take a lot of pictures. I love my surroundings and feel constantly inspired.

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So I’m going to France to move and to grow. I’m going to do some physical work and some mental healing, and roll around in the garden with the dogs until my heart sings again. I’m going to find the wonder in the every day, and hopefully, bring it back with me.

A bientôt, France.

On Pressure

I put an insane amount of pressure on myself.

Pressure to be so much and so little at the same time.

Be more talented, be smarter, be more outgoing, be more sociable, be shorter, be thinner, be calmer, be quiet.

I’m sitting down to write this just after trying to film a new YouTube video. I wanted to make my content more accessible, so I was filming a video version of my Micro Acts of Self-Harm post, but I found it insanely difficult. I don’t think I’m a natural on camera, and rather than tell myself it’s okay and work around that, I beat myself up about it. Why am I not good on camera? What’s wrong with me? Why can’t I be like those pretty girls on YouTube who have it all? The lighting, the cameras, the microphones and the personality. I wish I was like them. But I’m not. I don’t have the right equipment or personality.

So I sat on my bed on the verge of tears because I wasn’t perfect. Again. For me, nothing I ever do is good enough, and never will be. At least, that’s what I normally think.

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But you know what? Fuck that. I am good enough. Not everyone can be all things to all people. There is literally no one on this planet who can do it all. The idea that I should somehow be the first person to achieve everything to a professional standard is ridiculous and unfair. I am what I am, and what I am is more than good enough. In fact, what I am is great. I work hard both in my professional and personal life. I’m still healing, and part of that process requires me to relearn how I see myself. So today I choose to see myself as perfectly imperfect, and a work in progress. No pressure, no strings, no waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I’m Hannah, and that’s more than enough.

How To Handle The Worst Days

Let’s set the scene, shall we?

It’s day 3. You’re lying in bed and you can smell your own breath. You haven’t changed out of whatever you’re wearing, and you’re definitely still wearing the same underwear. Your bedroom smells like old food, and the bin in the corner if overflowing with crap. The weight of responsibility is pushing down on you, making you sink further into the bed. You have so much to do. You have bills to pay and appointments to make. But you can’t. Why? Because this is one of the Worst Days. It goes beyond a normal Bad Day. This is the Worst, and you feel stuck.

I’m going to tell you how to drag yourself out of that pit. It’s going to take some willpower on your part, but I promise you, you will get out of this. The best way to look at this is a series of small steps to create a big change. The best way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time!

I’m going to tell you how to drag yourself out of that pit. It’s going to take some willpower on your part, but I promise you, you will get out of this. The best way to look at this is a series of small steps to create a big change. The best way to eat an elephant is one bite at a time!

So, let’s dive in.

GET OUT OF BED

This can feel like a huge step, and frankly, it is. None of the other stuff is going to happen unless you get out of bed. Swing your legs over the edge of the bed and place your feet on the floor. Sit up. Stand up. Congratulations, you just completed the first step!

GET IN THE SHOWER

You stink. I know it, you know it. I’ve been there and I know the old familiar smells (emphasis on the word old). Drag yourself into the bathroom and put your clothes in the laundry hamper. Turn on the water and get in and scrub. Scrub away the last 3 days. Use nice soap! Deep condition your hair if you so wish. Just wash your body.

GET DRESSED

Once you’re showered, it’s time to put some new clothes on! But before you do that, I’d recommend moisturising. This always makes me feel a lot better, especially when I use a nice lotion like Lush’s Sleepy lotion. When you’ve done that, find some clean comfy clothes and put them on.

LET NATURE IN AND HYDRATE

By now you should be feeling slightly more alert. Hurrah! Now it’s time to give that feeling to your environment. Open the curtains or blinds in your room (or whole house if you can). Crack open a window. Get a glass of water and stand in front of the open window and drink it.

DO ONE SMALL CHORE

What you do is entirely up to you, but do something. Empty that bin, do some laundry, pay a bill. Do one thing, and I promise you you’ll feel so much better afterwards. You might even be spurred on by the sense of accomplishment, in which case you can do another chore! Do whatever you feel comfortable with, but do something.

RELAX

Congratulations! You’ve done a lot today and you should feel proud of that! Now it’s time to relax. Get yourself something good to eat, sit on the sofa (not your bed) and relax. Watch your favourite box set or a movie. Read a book. Just chill. Reward yourself for all the effort you’ve put into yourself today, and get ready to do it all again tomorrow.


I hope this was helpful to you! What does the Worst Day look like to you? How to do you get yourself out of it? Tell me about it in the comments!

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